One more meal

You can do it

My mind says track it

My body says attack it

My mental illness wants to deprive me

I’m withering

A

W

A

Y

.

You must finish those groceries you bought

It speaks

Then i eat it

It speaks again

Shovel down those laxatives

Shovel down those garcinia cambogia pills

It speaks again

You’ll feel much better

& can start again tomorrow

It’ll all be worth it

It speaks on a continuum

.

One more step

One more meal

One more day

That’s what they all say

.

I want out

It’ll be easier to just get out

I know I need help

But what if my ED convinces me

I’m better off with it

I can’t live without it

.

Wither me away

Drop the weight

Control the emotions

& control situations

With your food

Once more

& another

& another

& I’m back into it

It’s never ending

And before you know it

A relapse

Is a vicious never ending cycle

There’s no way out

Will there ever be freedom?

Will there ever be a light?

Will I ever be happy?

& will I ever be alright?