I’m freaking out
Are you freaking out
Or is it just me
It’s oily
It’s frozen
It’s cheese
It’s dairy
It’s freaking me out!
.
Oh not you?
So it’s just me
That’s great.
Dairy
Dairy
Dairy
Oil
Oil
Oil
Why lord why?
.
They say it’s nutrients
It’s good for you
I say the hell you talking about
This is good for you
I eat it I eat it
But I have to chant along in my head
It’s good for you, it won’t hurt me.
Because lord almighty if I let ED talk
I know she’ll bark orders
and blame and shame me to a dark corner
.
There’s no hiding
Bc I did it fucking eating disorder
I finished the scary meal
Now what’s it to you
Ya I know I’m still thinking about it
But I conquered it
More than I can say about you
With your goal of restructuring and restricting my mind, soul and body
That’s never been
or will be yours
This is me! 