One more meal
You can do it
My mind says track it
My body says attack it
My mental illness wants to deprive me
I’m withering
A
W
A
Y
.
You must finish those groceries you bought
It speaks
Then i eat it
It speaks again
Shovel down those laxatives
Shovel down those garcinia cambogia pills
It speaks again
You’ll feel much better
& can start again tomorrow
It’ll all be worth it
It speaks on a continuum
.
One more step
One more meal
One more day
That’s what they all say
.
I want out
It’ll be easier to just get out
I know I need help
But what if my ED convinces me
I’m better off with it
I can’t live without it
.
Wither me away
Drop the weight
Control the emotions
& control situations
With your food
Once more
& another
& another
& I’m back into it
It’s never ending
And before you know it
A relapse
Is a vicious never ending cycle
There’s no way out
Will there ever be freedom?
Will there ever be a light?
Will I ever be happy?
& will I ever be alright?
This is me! 