I feel.. my body… = not enough.., for you.?!..

I hate this

I used to be so confident with my body

Now it’s gone

I used to not care what people thought

Or saw

I was me and happy to be me

I wore swimsuits with confidence

Not worrying or upset ,

Because of the worlds comments

Why do they hold so much significance

Why do I compare

And now I feel insecure

For him I feel like I’ll never be enough

He looks at those

I’m never going to be that

these are not those

And this body is NOTHING like those

His words can be said

But his actions speak louder

Don’t comment

Don’t like

Don’t love and drool on those

But say it doesn’t matter

You screenshot that

You never screenshot this

You desire all that

When authentically I’m all this

Which feels like nothing

Your actions Drapes over all thy words

I know you desire that body

My body will never be

Without plastic surgery

I’m just petite

I desire

I love

I fall wildly

But none of it matters

If I feel like I’ll always be lacking for your taste and desire

For that I could never fully fill

I’m stuck patiently

My desire exceeds all exterior

I’m all in for your character

I’m not superficial

I don’t need much

But whether words spoken with friends as bro’s

Or not

They’re said and I hear

They’re looks and I see

They’re longings and I feel

They’re saved and I’m unseened