I used to be so insecure with my body. I would never tell people the one part I was most vulnerable about. I was way too embarrassed and talking about this insecurity would make it even more of a insecurity. So this has been my own battle for most of my life. Looking and searching for acceptance from others to appreciate my body (even in my guarded clothing). I wore guarded clothing because I didn’t feel pretty enough to wear the in clothes and low cut tops, because what did I have to show. I also wanted others to appreciate a body that I didn’t appreciate.
*Until recently!*
I am proud to say I now accept my body! It’s been a long time coming. I’ve always been a slimmer women and us petite ladies live in a world where you must be curvy to be beautiful or busty. Leaving our insecurities deep with out place to run. SO MY INSECURITY WAS MY BREAST. I was one who searched for the acceptance of others and wanted others to say they were beautiful, thinking that I’d finally think they’re beautiful as well If others did. But that’s not the case. It took me a long journey to get to this point of accepting me, ALL OF ME! Without needing a man or anyone else to tell me or inform me. And trust me, it took me being out of a relationship to figure this out ladies, just saying! I used to dream of having bigger breast but don’t want a foreign object in there to make them larger, and I don’t believe in surgery but still battled on doing so. I also wore padded bras and longed to wear tops braless but was WAYYYYY TO INSECURE (my nipples will pop out or people will see I’m tiny all around, etc) But I KNOW I am beautiful! I have battled with so much in my life, many things that people may know and many things others don’t. I’m a pretty private person. But when you have a self acceptance like “the transformation mindset” I like to call it that I’ve had. You can’t but help and tell everyone (I mean if it’s not weird).
Because I’ve been fed for way to long that a significant other would only love you if you have (big boobs, big butt, curves, muscles, whatever it may be). I SAY NO! The right man, will love me for me! My gorgeous lovely self INSIDE AND OUT! My body is a temple! A piece of art! And I hate to say it’s taken me this long to figure this out! But I’m 23 years old and I am more than ready to walk with confidence now, show off my body, and love me for me! To finally be able to wear tops I try to say I dislike, so I don’t buy them or friends don’t encourage me too, because of insecurities. Or to finally feel more free and just do me and wear what’s me, regardless of this “curvy is beautiful, being thin is anorexic” world we live in. Which is beyond frustrating, just saying!! I may not have these big boobs to show off in low cut tops, but that don’t mean they’re not beautiful and I can and I will still wear those tops! Because regardless of what others think or say! I am beautiful! I am me! And I was created this way without flaw! Who am I to allow others comments or judgements to stick to me like a leech or my own! They didn’t earn a place in my life, nor do I want them there, so why did I for so long allow them to be there. Right?! Well that ends today!! When I was created by the one and only creator, my body was uniquely and beautifully designed for a purpose! Hand picked! And beyond everything, I am thankful, grateful and blessed to be in this body of mine! And ready to take this world on, NOW IN CONFIDENCE!
This is me! 