Process of Healing

I’m kind of lost

I’m overwhelmed with feelings

I know what’s right

I know what’s wrong

I’m aware

But I’m also working on it

Saying no

Standing my ground

Being okay with loosing people

I’m swimming in feelings

Feelings of years of experience

Shoved down, hidden, blocked and ignored

I’m dealing

Trying to slowly

That’s a lot to finally deal with

People shorting me

With words,

Judgements ,

Actions,

Life

Doesn’t help me

But I’m also dealing

With the now,

Then,

And in between

Have patience with me

Please

In this time

I’m trying my best

Short or harsh

I try not to be

Loving or purposeful

I do try

Not always easy

But I love

I care

I appreciate

And I hope they’ll see

This isn’t how I’ll always be

Healing takes time

Healing is a journey

And healing is within me