Life is hard but then again no one said it would be easy. We have to dig to the pits of our souls to overcome some of the things that we’ve shut down so far below. It’s not an easy process, boy do I understand believe me!
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*This healing process from recovery.
*This healing process from these emotions & these feelings.
*This healing process from past experiences and all these things that I’ve shut down throughout the years and decades now have to come up to the surface.
*There’s no longer any hiding
*There’s no longer any secret savings
*There’s no longer any, I’ll deal with it later. Let’s play happy go lucky, there’s no more of that.
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Life is hard! Trust me when I say on the outside everything always looks just fine but on the inside is where I had my battle ground and I was fighting and fighting just to stay happy and alive.
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Life is a struggle at times.
Life can be hard sometimes.
It’s hard to look on the positive bright side sometimes.
It’s harder to just live day by day sometimes.
It’s harder to stick a spoonful of food in your mouth just one more spoon full.
Sometimes it’s hard to overcome and face these fears.
Sometimes it’s hard to face your enemies, these past memories that you need to overcome. Trust me I’m right there with you.
Although this is hard I’ve seen these past few days how happy it does make you feel, it hurts and it leaves scratches but not scars.
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You heal and it’s a process but you heal!
It’s one that’s not done overnight.
It’s one where you really find your true friends and then the toxic friends and the toxic Family. And although it’s hard for me to agree to this or think it’s OK you have the right and you get to live the life that you wish no matter what others have to say or how they tell u to live.
Under there roof or not.
In the end…
Your life is your rules!!
If that means you have to kick some toxic people out of your life, then it’s something you must do.
We don’t need any negativity.
We don’t need any hurt.
We are already battle within ourselves,
Our mental health is a must to be pure, clean and full of positivity!
Trust me these past few days has been anything but easy.
I faced a lot of demons and I’m still facing them today.
I’ve shut things so low below the surface that I thought I was healed and overcame them and I had to tell myself a lie that I was healed when really all I was doing was telling myself a lie. 💔
This journey is a process we must not lie to ourselves just so we feel complete and whole because we can be complete and whole within ourselves the truth in overcoming it is not to be alone but find a core group and confide in them, a bff or mentor. And always remember God is there to help you!
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This week I faced a lot of fears and came to lot of conclusions but that does not mean that I’ve healed from them or that I have fully face them. That just means that I have acknowledge them and I’m trying
I’m doing my best and I’m being blunt and I’m living the best way that I can with protecting myself and healing.
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So if it’s a fear food(s) for you, if it’s healing from pass abuse, If it’s narcotics, if it’s relationships, no matter what it is you can face it!
I’m facing it today and still going strong!
I have my highs and lows and I get upset and tenderhearted. But I don’t allow that to stop me! I surround myself with three core friends ones that are there to support me and help me and guard me and love me and no matter how much negativity or how much fighting or how much hiding. No matter what I throw their way they’re there to support me. I think it’s vital for us, we recovers to have a core group that we can come to and trust in and confide in and love and not be ridiculed or judged.
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Today is a new day!
Healing is coming!
You got this!
You woke up today and that’s the first step. It may of been hard and maybe troublesome and maybe scary. But whatever you’re facing today you will be able to overcome it this I believe. I’ve overcome some very dark things that I don’t really let anyone know about. I am a very private person but I’ve come to see, that is not the best to hide everything from everyone.
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It’s OK to release some things and yes it’s scary and yes it’s frightening and yes the what if questions keep popping in your head and so much more. You’re not expressing it to the world, you’re not giving every fine detail to everyone. You may express a thing or two to the world but they don’t know the fine details that got you to that point or what you did or how you took care of it or did not take care of it.
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Those details are the ones that you save for your core group maybe you just want to express one thing about the recovery to the world and then it’s the core group that gets to hear every detail that’s up to you. But you must choose self-love and self worth today!Keep that positivity growing within you and within side you every being and be the light today!You never know, you could be being the lifeline for someone else and if someone is struggling in this darkness, you may need to be the light. God‘s got you and I know that’s hard to believe sometimes when you’re feeling so low and down and out and you see nowhere with light in sight. But God‘s got you and your core friends got you and if you need me you have me.
This is me! 